18 months

Long enough to get married, travel to Spain, live in California, live in Victoria, Toronto, move to San Francisco, pass my COMP and my Thesis Proposal and a bunch of other non academic things.

Not sure why I let go of this - but I think the last year is worthy of documenting and I guess it is possible that I could start now.

Meta-blogging.

even more

ENTP - "Inventor". Enthusiastic interest in everything and always sensitive to possibilities. Non-conformist and innovative. 3.2% of the total population.

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trouble starting again.

i seem to be having some trouble starting to write again. especially the ibm thing. i am nervous and i hate writing - so i am majorly procrastinating. which is bad news.

With a three page goal - i need to get on task asap - other wise all of my trips will be a waste of time.

i guess i just have to get started.

read barb's paper - and it all seems quite doable.

MUST WORK - get a grip berg - and do it.

yikes

Done.

comprehensive proposal - tick.

after the funny meeting on Wednesday - where I was told as long as I wrote the email saying I would make certain changes - i could be done, I am really done now.

Adrienne read my latest draft. And said many nice things - including, nice, very nice and some sentences are beautiful.

She shook my hand, gave me a candy and said congratulations.

What a relief. What a flood of emotions.

What a lot of work lies ahead.

Now I have to write the 30 pages of paper and have it ready for her by the end of march. I am hoping that I can have a draft by the end of January.

At 30 pages. That is 10 pages per week. 2 pages per day.

Completely do able.

Then I will have somthing to give to Barry before I go to CA.

I also have to finish the IBM thing this weekend. That will be a pain but not impossible.

OK - i will keep with my schedule. lets aim for 15 pages per week. 3 pages a day (that does not include notes).

tough - but manageable. I will be very excited on Monday - i expect.

PHEW.

re-writing and editing is funny

last year, my advisor told me to completely rewrite my comp proposal. I did.

then i sent her the most recent veriosn, so i thought and we had a meeting. She said that if i wrot her an email saying i would make the changes - she would send an apporval email to the head and I could move on. This was in response to the wrong draft - to a copy of the draft she rejected last year.

funny.

so really, all of that work for nothing.

so typical. tough to stay inspried.

hopefulyl she will ahve similar things to say about the draft i sent her this mroning.

work is funny.

i think i should star writing a novel instead of this hidious phd stuff. that would be way more fun and I might actually write something.

my "office"

a few weeks ago i got a carrel at the university library. i love it. i love it so much that i have a place to work with a locking door and a desk i do not have to tidy off. the window is teeny and the chair is too low - but somehow i manage to get things done and nap in this little piece of heaven. one thing that is bad, is having my back to the door and i cannot manage to concentrate with such exposure. to solve this problem i taped some things to the window. when i walked into my cube this morning - there was a note - saying such taping was not allowed and that the paper had been removed. yuck. people in my cube.

anyway - i can hang my coat up and protect myself - but it is not really the same.

there is no privacy - big brother is always watching.

fortunatle i still love my cube.


oh, the picture is important because i have it on my wall - and i have a rasterbation image of the same photo on the wall as well. it looks very nice and reminds me of a time when i was happy.

yay

finally, something exciting

today i pressed send. i attached my completed comp proposal draft and whisked it out into the electro universe for adrienne to read.

how very anti climactic

after many sessions with the writing clinic - a rather unbalanced collection of good and bad days - a trip to northern saskatchewan and far too much fretting for my own good - i finished the paper.

i have no idea if it is good or not. or if it will be the kind of thing that i can tick off of my list. but at least i have something to edit.

and now, i can reorganize my virtual desktop and start the next thing. the comp.

i think some how this will be a lot easier

who knows.

confidence is such a strange thing - when it is there, work is possible, when it is not - i am stuck.

perhaps some lovely list making is in order - and then i will know a new project is on the horizon.

yay.

very nice

had my supervisor read my progress so far, and for a first draft, she smiled, nodded and said, hmm very nice. this is particularly meaningful.

makes the work a bit easier.

too bad my body is ravaged by the sitting at the machine.

yuck.